Catch up - January 31, 2014

Kris fell again at Grace Pointe Rehab on Sunday 2 a.m. - more changes occured.  We finally took him to ER and then admitted him to NCMC with pneumonia and other changes related to dementia.

Change and new surroundings are very very difficult for those suffering from dementia and so Kris had yet another difficult time... but he tried his best every moment to do what was expected of him but not always succeeding :) (called being human).

I was again instructed by all the doctors and pallative staff that it was not in Kris' best interest (or mine) to bring him home for care.  

Yesterday at 1 p.m. Kris was placed at the Aspen House Memory Care Center in Loveland.   In order for Kris to adjust and start trusting others to care for him, they have asked that I not visit Kris for 7-10 days.  

For all of you who know me, you know that this is a heart-rendering request of me.  And you know as well that I am not coping well with this... however, I know who is holding me, who is protecting Kris and who is giving us strength for each step we are taking.   I will survive I am sure :)

Thank you for your constant thoughts and prayers, for your love and friendship.

Catch up - January 23, 2014

Kris and I have been coming to the house a little each day, we are here now and of course, he is sleeping :)  Wish I could say everything was going well and stable, but it is not... just like life I guess. 

I continue to do the up and down tango, not sure which way to go.  But I know that sooner or later a decision must be made and will be made with peace and courage.  

Kris is still at Grace Pointe Rehab Unit, still having issues with edema and now gout, he fell while trying to sit in a chair the other night (landed on one knee but jarred his already painful back), he won't eat in the dining room now, but has trouble with eating anyway so I can help better this way; sleep is still an issue (sleep in day and paces at night when I am not there, yes, the co-dependance is an issue but is normal the doctor says; not easy but normal); and the ever present incontinence. 

I am still going home at nights to sleep, my sister is still here with the dogs in the evenings; Kris' niece and her husband will start on the home renovations tomorrow.   

Just to cover my ever/never changing mind, the owner from Aspen House is coming over in a bit to do an assessment, just in case I land on a final decision.  Have filled out an application for VA nursing facility in Denver - just in case.  (See a pattern yet?  :( ).  I don't know where my decision-making process went, but it must be on extended vacation.

Thanks for your continued prayers and encouragement, give me time, I will land somewhere :)