I
left the hospital about 9:30 tonight with Kris snoring away wrapped in a
nice warm blanket. They take such good care (not like me of course,
but more patient than I :) I try to do all the care-taking for him up
there when I can as they are doing us a favor by keeping him and helping
us out, they are so busy.
It is where the alcoholics and druggies
come when problems, it is a lockdown floor. And I believe it was meant
to be - when looking for a bed they didn't know where to put him, thank
God it was there as most of the nurses and CNA's have worked in Alz
facilities and were very aware of Kris's actions and reactions.. and
again, they love him. It will be hard for them to say goodbye, if they
know they won't see us again they all come in and hug us and cry a
bit. have made me promise to keep them updated.
I, however, will be
glad to move forward, it feels a bit like prison to me and I think Kris
will do much better being able to walk around more and outside, etc.
It is amazing to watch him when walking down the hall, the floors are
faux wood dark and then light wood squares in the middle for decoration
I guess - when he walks he won't walk on the light wood, will most times
bend down to see if it will come up. He wants to go into some of the
patient rooms to see people but will always just wave to them, he picks
at things in the air and on his lap, talks to someone(s) unknown to me -
will stare at the dry erase board or mirror for hours - very unfocused,
very sad. I don't know what the fall did but it certainly has caused
a change in him - sometimes sometimes he was like he was
before (do they call that normal?)
Well, must get some sleep, will
get up early to shower and pack things for his room and maybe take them
over if possible, get sister to work and to the hospital as early as
possible. Thank you to my friends from work who will
take my car to Grace Pointe so I can ride in the van with Kris (your
graciousness never ends Muriel), wish us luck, pray that I made the
right choice in all areas and that I stop questioning all the doors that
God has opened for us - again, I believe this is a God-thing through and
through and He will keep me glued together. I feel His presence, but I
am still frightened, among other things... this is just part of life I
am afraid.
The dogs are still confused and even more spoiled than before,
they keep looking for Kris - Kris still reaches out for them and gives
them a make believe treat now and then. Ghoni is still willing to come
over after work to spend the night with them. The facility has asked
that I stay with Kris at least a couple of nights and slowly wean him
(and myself probably), my sis has the weekend off and will stay...
another God thing...then we will both know what tomorrow looks like
tomorrow and tomorrow.
With heavy eyes and full heart - all my love and thank you for your notes of encouragement and love
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